Madelyne's Pics...as promised!

OK, OK, OK...so I'm a little late, hope you all enjoy!

just rolled over back to front!

sitting pretty!

I don't think I like peas anymore!

"can you see the peas in my hair..."-MGK

TGIF

WOOHOO Today is Friday. How excited am I? Very.... I am so exhausted from last weekend and all this week...too bad I really don't get a break. I have so procrastinated this week in my house. I just can't manage to get off the couch or floor(where ever I am playing with Mati) Speaking of Mati she went to bed at 7:30 last night. I miss her! lol...ok so back to the house. It's a freakin wreck. I will be slaving away at that when I get home. Poor Josh ...he is at home trying to help catch up on laundry....thats the only thing on his hunny do list so he will survive! I am going to try and decorate tonight and have almost everything done. It's going to be a late night. I would rather stay up late than wake up early. Shower tommorrow and I am done for a while.. So I am debating on some games..... I think we will draw a baby on a paper plate on our heads...can't wait for that....I was actually thinking about musical chairs....blindfolded....it's so funny to watch..I saw it on Ellen and I have been dying to have an excuse to do it....
Karsyn's one year in the morning....I have a feeling tommorow is going to be a little hectic. We will see. I will just have most of it done tonight..Hope you enjoyed the pictures of my little angel..She is BEAUTIFUL, isn't she?

Roll Over....

Well Mati is rolling over both ways...and alot....she just sits on her tummy so pretty. It is so cute to watch. She loves it when we cheer for her for doing a good job. We have noticed her starting to tuck those chucky thighs under herself, and I have been crawling around infront of her to show her how. She use to hate being on her tummy and really didn't care to be put on her tummy, but she is loving it now. They change so much...so fast. The past two mornings I have woken up to a sideways baby. She is constantly kicking out of the covers.... Yes...she sleeps with me. This has been a huge topic in my house the past 2 days. Josh is worried we will have a 10 year old in the bed and seriously he is worried about "privacy" which I find halarious! Josh has only gotten up with Mati the first few weeks she was born, and I only nurse her at night now so...he sleeps all night. It's completely fine with me. I love her in the bed. Since I work I feel like that is some extra time that I am getting with her. She sleeps right under me and that is fine with me. When she is older I will put her in her bed....but for now...I like her where she is. They are only small for a little while.

Enough of that....there are so many things I need to do before this weekend. I am a stickler about a clean house....thank you hunny for making me this way. I have got to make sure everything looks clean and is organized. Silly...I know. My mom tells me that people don't expect me to have a spotless house with a 5 month old.....Are you crazy? They better... Josh runs a tight ship...lol...anyways...I am looking forward to the weekend...We have Karsyn's one year birthday party with the Carlews at their home and a baby shower at our home on the same day. This will be kind of a stressful weekend.

Valentine's Day is about 2 weeks away...I can't wait to dress Mati in her "love" outfit and go to dinner. I told Josh we are only doing cards this year....no flowers...they are a waste and die. I am trying to be a little more frugle with our money....Lets just go to dinner...all 3 of us..no big deal! Did I mention that little Mati has stolen my heart!! ok ok so I didn't post picks last night but I will tonight. Josh got some great pics of her last night after rolling over...Until then...

Kisses

Well we are back home from a rather long week. My grandparents cut down 7 or 8 huge tree's in their yard before they could clean it up....my step grandfather passed. Needless to say...Josh and I worked our rears off. I didn't know I could work that hard. We worked 2 days in row...all day... When we are all picking up to leave to go to my parents house .....I tried to pick up a log and flip it with Josh....I seriously screamed and dropped it! I have been in pain since....

We left Tuesday night and drove overnight to Mississippi. I was so exhausted Friday morning. Josh tried to wake me up and I told him I was about to be in a big race....funny right...he insisted that I wake up...so as I am trying to focus and open my eyes...they kept crossing..it sucked and he got a good laugh... he pulled me out of bed and literally drug me into the kitchen. After I finally woke up we headed off to see my grandmother. Her brothers and sisters were there and got to meet Mati for the first time. Mati also rolled completely over in my grandmothers living room and everybody cheered, she looked freaked out by all the noise and didn't care to do it again. We headed home and got ready for the wake. Honestly I felt like I was at another familys'...family reunion. I hardly knew anyone. We were there for support for grandmother so...it was a long night. Thursday was the day of the funeral. My brothers came to my moms to get ready and it was so nice to have them and their wives around. After the cemetary we headed back to the church where the church family cooked us an amazing dinner. The dessert was sinful... Then....the work began.....we worked until after dark and came back for more the next day. My grandmother played with Mati inside while we all worked...She enjoyed bonding with her. Saturday we veg'd and visited other family before heading home. I packed and did laundry while Josh relaxed since he would be driving..I got sick on the way home and it sucked...My house smelt so good when we got home. I was so ready to be home. We got in our bed....transferred Mati and crashed. I was still sick yesterday morning so Josh got up with Mati. I stayed in bed all morning and Josh made me a sick couch so I could join him and Mati. By that afternoon I was feeling ok enough to make dinner and by dinner...Josh was sick....so I let him veg in my sick couch while I got us unpacked and the house clean.

Today has been a crazy clean up day at work. I have been fixing errors that were made last week and Josh is getting everything ready for his month close this week. I decided that I am doing laundry tonight and nothing else. Tonight is TV night.

Mati Update: I know I must sound like a broken record but Mati has changed so much from last week. She is noticing the bubbles in the bathtub and wanted to play with my watch yesterday. She has also started giving kisses away....very big wet slobbery ones. Yesterday she was in her jumper and Josh would tell her to stand up for daddy and she would stand so straight and he would clap for her. It was the sweetest thing. She is still giggling at anyone that can make her laugh. She loves her baths...she just lays back and relaxes....some nights we have a crazy splasher and some nights she just chills... She decided yesterday she doesn't like her pea's after all, I was making dinner so Josh fed Mati and it was halarious. She would act like she was going to gag and rubbed it in her hair twice. The last spoonful ended up in her hand as she grabbed the spoon away from her mouth. I hated to leave her this morning...she was in such a good mood...she loves being on her routine. I can't believe she will be 6 months next month. I will post pics later tonight.

We Leave Today!

Well....Josh, Madelyne and myslef are hitting the road tonight. Oh what fun. We are driving at night so Mati can sleep. We are hopibng she does good. I don't see any reason for her not to. She gets bored if we drive during the day.Today has been an absolutely crazy one...work work work. I didn't expect to leave work this week for 3 days so I am doing as much work as possible. I hate to feel like a burden being gone..,,yes I know...grieve right? No...no time...I told Josh that I don't know how I am going to react when we get there. I am sad for the loss but I just can't cry yet! Maybe I won't ....I don't know.
Last night Josh and I hung out and veg'd...I got my car back...Thank you God!! I missed it. Other than that Josh has been at home with Mati today and we are getting things in order when I get home so....this is rather a boring update...just one to let you know..this page will be the same until next week...I will be taking pics though..God Bless...

Loss

Unfortunately today when I got back from lunch, my mom called and told me that my step grandfather had passed away. Completely unexpected....My mind races with memories and sympathy for my grandmother. I gave him hell when he first started dating my grandmother. The death of my first grandfather was so overwhelming I couldn't believe she would remarry. She married him before the holidays and of 06' and by my wedding in March of 07' I had finally warmed up to him. I saw how he made my grandmother act like a teenage girl again and they were so in love. I swallowed my pride and decided he was what was best for her. After all he adored her and if they made each other happy, I should be happy. My grandmother says that our bonding moment was when we were setting up the day before my wedding. Almond and I were piecing 2 carpets together and it took both of us on the floor to do so, I could tell he was trying so hard to win me over and it worked. I am now humbled that I got to meet such an amazing man. No one should have to bury 2 husbands. I am at a loss for words on how I would feel. Josh is my other half that makes me whole, and I don't think I could make it without him. Yes, I am sure I could fake it on the outside for a while, but the brokeness inside would eventually kill me. I hope we go together. I know this blog in morbid and dreary, but I knew no other way to express my feelings. He will be missed~

It's About Time~

Well the day has finally made its way to me! I am officially pre pregnancy weight!!! woohoo...I actually weighed a pound less yesterday, today I was up a pound. I was still even with pre prego weight (with a full boob to feed Mati) and you have no idea how good it feels. I am soo proud of myself. I was beating myself up last week for not doing my wii fit and lounging; not to mention the scale was 5 lbs from the pre prego weight. I stood on the scale Sunday morning and couldn't believe my eyes.... I was so excited! Anyways..ideally I would like to loose about 8 to 10 more lbs and I will be happy with myself. If I don't loose it and just get toned I think I will be just as happy. Go Kate..Go Kate!!!

We had a great weekend. Friday started off with dinner with the Singletons. We had a great time. We waited at Texas Roadhouse for forever and then managed to finally get a booth. Laura and I have so much in common I feel like I have known her for years. Not to mention it was fun having our little angels together. I love to watch people stare. We know they are beautiful but its more fun to watch people gawk at them. Mati is so shy and it takes her a little while to smile at new people sometimes...she is to curious.. Jaycee...Laura's little girl loves to smile smile smile!!!After dinner Josh and I headed home to relax and just lounge!! Saturday is generally my day to sleep in. Josh got up with Mati and let me sleep until 11. I couldn't tell you the last time I slept that late! It was so nice. He did all the laundry and washed and boiled all Mati's bottles...Once I got up we cleaned house and went and got groceries and went and saw my parents for a little bit until Miss Mati decided it was time to go home. Sunday Mati and I let daddy sleep in so we hung out and made daddy breakfast until it was time to get ready for church...then we came home and hung out for a little bit...cleaned out the garage and went back to church. I got things ready for today and we crashed. I absolutely love our life.

The only thing we have coming up would be a shower at my house on the 31st!!! I am lovin this low key thing!

Madelyne Update: Well there isn't much new going on. Last night Josh and Mati were laying across our bed while I scrubbed my shower and she had 2 fingers in her mouth and 2 fingers in his mouth. It was so cute! She started whispering this past weekend...she takes her tongue and puts it between her gums and says "tha tha tha", but she is saying it so soft. It's sweet! We also started giving her the biter biscuit cookies and she really enjoys them. I strip her shirt off and put her in her bumbo and she goes to town. She has also decided she loves peas... We started her on a routine of baby food last week and she wasn't sold at first, but by Friday there was alot less on that bib and more in her mouth.

Good Times!

Today is Hump Day!!!! yay!!! I am so so so glad that my week is halfway over. If it wasn't so cold it would be a freaking nice day!!! How about the Biggest Loser last night? I was so sad to see the old guy go home! I wish Joelle would have been sent home. She really doesn't want to be there. That is such a motivating show to watch. Josh and I are getting back on our baked chicken routine. Fun Fun! Friday we are going to dinner with the Singletons and I am so excited! The holidays took over our date nights and our wallets, thank God that's over. They have a little girl that is 5 days younger than Mati. So yes Laura and I got to exchange all of the woe's of pregnancy and we both knew what the other one was going through. Other than us both being complete talkers we have tons on common. So yeah if you can't tell....we are very excited about our dinner date on Friday!
Little miss Mati will be 5 months in a week..Man times flies when you are having fun. She is the absolute cutest thing ever. She has gotten very opinionated lately. If we are out and about anywhere when the clock gets around 8 she starts letting me know she wants to go home and by 9 we better be on our way. Once we get home she gets right back in that happy mood until bedtime. Hmm I wonder where she gets that from? I have been so curious lately as to when other babies her age go to bed. Mati goes to bed anywhere between 9 to 10. Some parents may think that's late, but I have no time with her during the day so I want as much us time as possible. I generally pick her up from my mom around 4 and we are home by 430...I nurse her and she helps me make dinner for daddy in her bumbo seat...Josh comes home and I usually let her do tummy time or put her in her jumper while we inhale our food. By then she is usually ready for a cat nap of about 30 minutes. She wakes up and is ready to play...We play and give her a bath every night around 7. After her bath she takes a bottle and takes another quick nap. When she wakes up we play some more until she is ready to go to bed...She lays in bed and talks to herself for quite a while before slipping off to sleepy town time. She generally sleeps through the night so we are up by 6 getting ready for the day...speaking of...I should probably get busy..workload calls!!!

Mojo

It's Tuesday and I am getting my Mojo back. Yesterday I felt so out of it...Nothing to plan...nothing to stress about...I keep thinking to myself..."who's life is this?" Thank God Josh heard the desperate cry of confusion and made dinner last night. I didn't really have a bad day, I just felt a little off. Hm mm I am the luckiest girl in the world. I have an amazing husband...the best man ever. What's the saying?....."God must have broke the mold" You have no idea. Josh never says an unkind word about anyone. He is so the devil's advocate. Not to mention the amazing daddy skills he has...he taught me how to make a bottle..He tries his absolute hardest to sweep my off my feet no matter how exhausted he may be. Yes he reads my blogs ... So I love you my H.B. (that's code for my special nickname so no one else knows what it means) <3> so I got off on a tangent there. Anywho...I am glad yesterday is over...Today has been pretty sweet! Nothing to complain about and that's always best in my book.

Madelyne Update: Well she ate a good bit of baby food yesterday for my mom and we stood there and clapped for her ...then she cheered for herself, so cute! When I take my lunch break I try to be as involved as possible...feeding... check...change diaper...check check...dress her and spend some one on one time. I have started blowing on her belly and she loves it. She just laughs and laughs, I love it! The other night she started holding her hands to my mouth. I interpreted it as " you wanna try?"...she is constantly eating her hands so I thought ..she thought mommy would like to try. My mom said she is feeling me speak by holding my mouth..my breathe and the way I hold my mouth. She has had 5 kids so maybe she is right...anyways...work is calling and I am ready to leave in an hour.

Much needed break!

Well it's Monday!! The beginning of a new week. A fresh start.... The weeks of madness and running around are over for a while. Thank God!!! Yesterday was very nice, We had a good amount of family at the church and a few friends came by Gringo's to celebrate with us. We are vey blessed. We started the morning off early..Kinzie came over to fix my hair....Thanks again....off to the church early to dress Mati...family arrived early and then it was time for the main event. Madelyne did good during the ceremony, but when my pastor tried to hold her laying back she started to cry...he noticed quickly she likes to look around..so nosy! Afterward we headed to Gringo's to fill the tummy. Madelyne recieved some gifts and we all had cake to close out the perfect day! Josh and I went by my mom's to take some photo's of Mati in my parents formal living room....which is gorgeous!! We headed back to church that night and had a great time.

Josh and I are ready to start the week...no lie! We both want our routine back. We have been eating terribly this past weekend and need to get back on track. I am so glad we just get to enjoy Madelyne now. I just want to focus on her growing and nothing else. Hopefully we won't be doing anything sha bam until August. Her 1 year bday!!! I can't believe she is almost 6 months old.

Mati Update: She laughed at me last night without tickling her. She naturally laughs at Josh, but she makes mommy work for it. She decided she loved Kinzie last night and on the way home all I would do is ask her if she loved Kinzie and she would just laugh...it was so funny. Saturday night she also held her hands out to mommy.. I ate it up of course.. We are back to playing at bathtime. She kind of took a break from splashing and now she is back to making a mess. Unfortunately I have been hearing a cough so she will be being watched closely over the next few days. The change in weather didn't help anything! So the Kozel's are back to normal life....we will have to figure out what that means!!!!!

Madelyne's Dedication

...wanted to share a few pics - without rambling. Enjoy :)

Thursdays....

Today is order day at work...fun fun...I have been swamped since I walked in the door. I have cleaned and mopped this office before I could start my day...(meaning calling customers) My driver is on the road ..over half my call list is knocked out and I am taking a quick break from reality to enter blog land...I am soo glad today is Thursday...I am one day closer to Friday! I have everything perfectly planned out for this weekend and it should go smoothly. I can't wait to see everyone and just enjoy the moment...After this weekend we should have a huge weight lifted off of us. I can't wait to be low key and just enjoy my baby growing...

Jody made my day last night at church. She was commenting on how in love me and Josh seem. Yes!!! We are very in love.. We are not the type of couple that drown each other in P.D.A. I hate that! We are mature enough to keep our hands off of each other, just because I think he is unbelievably sexy doesn't mean I need to flaunt it. Some couples need to get a room. I do love to see old couples holding hands in public though. They encourage a generation of thinking that divorce is an option and that you can be happy and in love forever. I can't wait to be old, in a rocker and have Josh still tell me I am beautiful. I would much rather people see how much we love each other than me telling them. It means more...

Madelyne Update: She is sitting up for about 20 seconds....woo hoo.. She is so strong. She still hates being on her stomach and I doubt she will ever roll over or crawl...I am not pushing her though. I like her being my baby...I won't be having a sibling for a while so I want to soak up every minute as she is changing.. She scratched her face so bad last night. I am hoping to is gone by Sunday. Anyways There isn't to much going on in the Kozel household. We are just getting ready for the weekend..

Live, Laugh, Love

Well today has gone so much more smooth than I could have asked..It's been the polar opposite of yesterday...I think I started my day off wrong by not making my bed...then as you have read before, my day turned into a complete nightmare. Turns out Josh was having a swamped day at the office so I made us a "comfort food" dinner, fat and all. Today has been a blessing...made bed...cleaned house...dropped Mati off...arrived early to work and knocked somethings out before lunch..now I only have 2 hours left and I will be on my way home...I need to go get somethings to make Madelyne's headband for Sunday but that's about it...I am joining a kickboxing class here in the next month. I am pretty excited. I canceled my 24 hour this month and I am just looking for another outlet. The wii fit will still be an outlet at home, but I would like to go somewhere for an hour to focus and kick some butt!!! I don't care what the scale says as long as I am toned...

Hmm... I am sitting at my desk ..sipping my cup of soup and taking it easy. A friend of mine blogged yesterday about marriage and she had some very valid points..I completely agree that marriage is work...it's dedication to that union and that person. When your engaged or seeing someone and you think of marriage you kinda think of "playing house"...It seems to me that the longer you have been together the shorter the "honeymoon " phase is..Marriage isn't instantly a bed of roses....but it can be...if you make it. I think the longer you are married and the more people involved (children) you have to work extra hard to let your spouse know they sweep you off your feet. Today I was talking to Josh on the phone during my lunch break and he said "bye baby"....I got butterflies like we had only been together a couple weeks and he was calling me baby....Generally when these feelings come and go I keep them to myself and forget about it. Today I text him and let him know how he made me feel ending with " I'm yours"...you could tell it made his day.You can't let the winds of life take over and smother the fire you once had for each other. It's normal to fight, it's an every week event in my house and I am not ashamed to share it. I think it makes my marriage stronger. Couples that act like they never fight make me sick. C'mon now...unless you never express you true opinions on subject then I can see where you wouldn't fight...or if you are abundantly wealthy...I think its impossible to not fight...be true to yourself and your spouse and duke it out one night!!! hahaha Making up is the best part. : ) Enough Dr. Phil.

So last night we googled Madelyne's weight and height to see what percentile she fell into, since I didn't get to hear this from her fired Dr. She is in the 75 % for her weight and 95 % for her height. She was very talkative yesterday. She talked to me the whole time I made dinner and had "jibber jabber" conversations with Josh and myself until bedtime. I love being a mommy and simply adore my beautiful little girl. Life has dealt me some hands I wish I could have thrown back, but she makes it all worth it!

Are you FREAKING serious?

Ok so earlier I talked about taking Mati to the doctor today on my lunch...I told my boss at worst I would be 1 hour and a half. Wrong!!!!! Well 2 and a half hours later I am back at work...scrambbling....I waited for an hour to see the doctor over 30 minutes in the room with my naked baby....I started thinking could it get any worse. I casually opened the door and told the nurse I would be dressing my child and leaving...she asked me to wait 5 minutes and I informed her I kept saying 5 minutes 45 minutes ago!!!!!!!! I dressed my child and headed out the door and demanded her records to find another doctor. She was like 18 $......excuse me....hell no....I told her I didn't have time to deal with her but my husband would be calling. So as I am leaving the parking garage I had to pay 5 bucks for not even seeing the doctor... ohh and your going to love the ending to my story....I ran out of gas getting on 288....yes...you read correctly ...baby in tow..stranded on the side of the road!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Thankfully my daddy rescued me and I was able to get my orders in on time and not screw up too much at work!!!! I just want to go home....put on some pj's...a face mask and ....do nothing~!
Madelyne update!!!! She is 15.5 lbs, 26 1/2 inches long!!!

Monday's.....uhhhh

Well today is the beginning of a hectic week and weekend. Today my mom is bringing Mati to me so I can take her to her 4 month check up....yeah I know....I am 2 weeks behind...*Bad Mommy of the Year award goes to me...who cares...lol.. So I get to see my lil cupcake at 11:00..and off to Fannin we go, I am hoping to be out of there and back at work by noon... we will see how that goes. I am discontinuing her shots until she is older. Autism has sky rocketed since they have been giving shots to infants. I will give her her shots when she is older but she is too young for me to notice a difference at 4 months and they could always tell me she was born that way. I also think it is just to hard on them...I got my shots before I started school and all I remember was my arm being sore and I didn't feel like playing that day..nothing major like being fussy and a temp like an infant. Josh didn't fully agree at first but after seeing how much I meant it, he supports me.

We had a great weekend...relaxing...We took down christmas lights, cleaned house and did laundry. We didn't go anywhere on Saturday, besides renting a movie...we hung out and just spent time together. Sunday we were at church and had lunch with my parents and came home to try and get things ready for the week. My grandmother is staying with us this weekend for Mati's dedication. I was starting to stress about finding matching shoe's..but thanks to an old friend...I am set. Now all I have to find is an undershirt, which I think I already own I just need to find. I am very excited...it's a big day for our little family.

Blessed.....

Blessed is the only word I can think of, when I think of 2008. We had our 1 year anniversary and welcomed a beautiful little girl into this crazy world. Josh and I have always been in a whirlwind it seems. We were together only 7 months when he popped the question. We spent the next year and a half focused on our wedding and him finishing up school. We got married in March and started building our house by August. We moved in our beautiful home in November and by January.....SUPRISE!!! We found out we had a little bundle on the way.....I guess we enjoyed our new home a little too much..lol....So we spent the year furnishing and waiting on our little miracle to arrive. She was a little impatient and just couldn't wait until September. We got to meet her a little early on August 21. We had a very hectic year and I am hoping that after this month we can be very low key and just relax and enjoy Madelyne. She is just amazing...I can't help but smile.. everytime I think of that little dimpled out smile..Her dedication will be on the 11th and then no more hustle and bustle...or atleast we hope!

New Years Eve we did nothing. This has become a tradition with us that I want to break. Mati wasn't in the best mood and put Josh and myself on edge. New Years day on the other hand was quite fun. Mommy got to sleep in, and then we headed to my moms to eat lunch.. we hung out for a few hours and decided to head home for a nap. Well the nap didn't happen after I started pulling down Christmas decor. I got everything put away except for the lights that are on the house! That is going to be Joshs project this weekend. He isn't too excited about getting on the roof so I let him put it off 1 more day! I put everything away ...cleaned house.....made fudge brownies...gave Mati her bath and we headed back to mom and dads for left overs and a card game! My sister didn't show back up for the cards so we cut our night short and left after about an hour. We stopped by Joshs parents to wish them a Happy New Year and got home. We got stuff ready for today and rocked out with Rock Band (Josh has been annoying me for days) and crashed by 9:45....what a day!!!!

Madelyne Update: Mati had some baby food yesterday! I thought we would start the New Year off with something new for her too. She has never had anything other than breastmilk and formula so this was quite different. I gave her bannanna's and she hated it! She would shiver as she watched the spoon come her way!!! I think he bib caught more than her mouth. Other than that she recognizes her bottle now and the other place she gets her milk from... :) All she has to do is see it and she is a happy camper! She knows whats coming! The bottle was something recent but the other has been for a while now. She started crying when I walked out of the room yesterday. I loved it! lol.....She has moods where she prefers Josh or myself for a while now, but she hasn't cried....she generally is just along for the ride no matter who is holding her.

I am so glad the new year has started...new resolutions to break and exciting stuff to see with Madelyne!