Almost gone!

Well people the year is almost gone! :) I am happy to see 2010 come and go. It hasn't been our best year, and I am excited about the new things about to happen for our family.

School is over, and I racked in all A's! whew! That felt great. This may be too much TMI, but I have noticed that pregnant women and their husbands share way too much when they are expecting so I will use that as my excuse. I mean Josh was telling his old boss about me planning to nurse for as long as I can, and I felt like I was sitting there NAKED! lol.. Anyways so here it goes..In April we started trying to get pregnant as planned....in May I finished my first semester back in college and got all A's going full time. I was so excited I told Josh we had to celebrate...we went out to eat..and 40 weeks later little Noah will be here! So yay for school...hehehe

Speaking of Noah... we should hopefully see his handsome face in about 42 days! Compared to what most people think I am pretty comfortable right now.. I worry that 6 weeks isn't long enough and I thank God I haven't moved into that "give me my body back" phase...I mean...I had to have been feeling it by now last time. I am pretty proud of myself for handling it all so well... I know I have yet to post a belly shot..and I really need to. We got some awesome pictures done last weekend, so once I have them back they will be up!

Madelyne is being treated for pneumonia, poor thing! Josh and I have been rotating being out of work all week. It really makes me appreciate my mom keeping her 90 % of the time when she is sick so we don't have to miss. She is out of town this week and I had to put on my big girl panties! She is doing better so just say a little prayer for our moo!

Josh and I are doing great. Transocean had a shower for us this past week and I can't tell you what a blessing it was. They bought over have our registry and left the small things like hangers, diapers, and all the little things you put on it for some variety. We received more than we could have hoped for. Anything else is just a blessing... The next 3 weeks are going to be a little crazy..We have the holidays and then the next weekend is our shower for family and friends. I am excited about it all!

Today is my Christmas!!!

Tonight at 6:30 I will be taking my last final of the semester! So say a prayer please!!! I am ready to have a break and enjoy this pregnancy!!!

Study Time!

2 down, 1 to go!

Well finals have not been too brutal this time. I am stressed, but last semester was worse I think. I wrapped up my business law class last Friday and took my BCIS test last night. It was a grueling 3 1/2 hours in a computer lab! Thank God it is done and I am pretty confident both of those classes will be A's!!!! As for my math class, I am also confident it will be an A! Wish me luck, he hasn't been an easy teacher!

I can taste winter break already and I am sooo excited! Josh and I are going to start working out at night now that our nights are free! I am a little nervous! I know I need to modify, but I am soo excited to sweat.

Josh has always been a "budgetor"....Me...not so much. I mean I looked at it, and noticed the totals but I never really paid it much attention. Josh took the route of not saying anything, he let it build up and about a week ago..he exploded! I listened and we had our first real week/ weekend of budgeting and we did great. I know the real test is at the end of the month, but I think I can do it, ohh no I mean I know I can! :) I am actually losing weight due to budgeting...we aren't eating out that much and I am down 2 pounds since last Thursday....hoorraaayy!!!

I am in week 33. Starting to get a little uncomfortable. My belly itches this time...hopefully that is not a sign of stretch marks :( and I can't remember being able to feel so much movement at such long distances in my body. I think he is going to be bigger than his sister. He loves those feet in my ribs also....7 more weeks and no more HEARTBURN or should I say volcanic lava creeping up my throat. yuck!

Mati is doing great! She is talking up a storm and tried to convince me to give her 2 pony tails this morning.. I just had no time. For such a little girl she has a very large opinion. Last night after bathtime she ran up to Josh and said, "I washed my hair daddy"....She loves for him to be proud of her..this morning was "daddy my got dressed"...I have never seen anyone so particular about their undies...its ridiculous...She will only wear princess panties!

Thats about it for our crazy household...I hope you all had a great Thanksgiving!

7 More Days!!

In 7 days...I will be home...I miss home...FYI my home is Mississippi!

I miss my family and I can't wait for some time with them. This will be my last trip before Noah arrives, so I better make it a good one!
T-72 Days until we could meet little Noah....geez that seems scary! This needs to slow down!

Mommy's Helper!

Last night I was making moo her dinner. I heard her clanking things around in the fridge, but it was giving me a few moments so I didn't say anything...until I noticed she was trying to close the door...THIS caught my attention...




This is short and sweet...Just like moo

Good Morning~

She loves getting her picture taken, sorry its blurry...its from my phone!

I love this picture, my little cuttie!

Doesn't she look to big in this one? I don't like it!

Well Thanksgiving is next week people...:) I can't wait! I can't wait to go home and see my family. I haven't been home since May so I am really needing some family time. I miss my grandma's terrible and I can't wait to get a plate FULL of dressing and rolls...thats pretty much all I eat. We usually always let the kids get theirs first, but I was thinking since Noah is in my belly that maybe I should get to go first with them...for him of course.

Other than that we are doing great....keeping our head above water until the semester is over.

On a side note: I generally hate when pregnant women are whiny...I mean we are all uncomfortable..just get over it. No one said this was going to be easy. I believe some are legit, but 24/7...negative...geez..I feel sorry for that bundle in your belly...SMILE! It will make your day so much better. This pregnancy has been rough, but I have tried to keep that to myself..until now...dum dum dum... I am putting this out there to see if anyone has any suggestions. I have been in extreme back pain the past 2 days, to the point of crying and I need something...I am the kind of person that hates to take tylenol.... pregnant or not I am not about putting drugs into my body, but I have been popping them like candy. Its weird I know...anyways moving on, I thought maybe he was on a nerve...I have gotten down on all fours and rocked like a crazy lady..nothing is working..its my mid back...mainly around the bottom of my left shoulder blade...ANYTHING would be greatly appreciated!

ok so...funny things Madelyne has been saying....

She has been calling Josh and myself...baby and beautiful...you can't help but laugh when she says "I don't want to baby! " lol...

When we tell her its time for bath"Don't wash my hair, ok"

Yesterday she was trying to put Josh's shoes in the closet, the door was closed so she tried and tried to open it...she gave up and told me "My can't do it, my knock it" and just started knocking on the door like someone would open it... hehehe

She found the toy in her happy meal and put her hands up and said "Happy Birthday, birthday tim birthday time" with a little tune.

Everything is "I do it myself"...everything....

She loves to sing....loves to sing...yesterday she must have been stuck on repeat "twinkle twinkle little star, how I wonder what you are ...twinkle twinkle little star, how I wonder what you are"

She has started going to Sunday school and loves it..

She wears big girl panties morning and night and we have zero issues....so nice!

She has been really working on her manners...she makes us tell her "yes ma'm and yes sir" She has no clue that sir is for men.

Thankful

The months are flying by...I wish time would just stand still....

Since November is a month of thanks I thought I would share a few of the things that I am most thankful for....

So much has happened this year, and as it draws to a close soon I am hoping that it was our most challenging for a while. Maybe until law school. We have had the worst of times and some great times this past year. My mother in law passed away suddenly, and the grief still lingers in our hearts. I wonder how excited she would be with Noah on the way. Everytime Mati does something hilarious I tell Josh his mom would have loved this! I try to keep her around as much as possible. I reference her when I can, but we also have to be careful. Madelyne really only remembers the last week I think sometimes. Grey's Anatomy was on and there was a middle-aged woman sitting in a hospital bed, she passed by and asked if that was grandma. My heart skipped a little and I reminded her that grandma was in heaven with Jesus. She gets upset sometimes because she wants to go see Jesus and see grandma. It comes in waves but there will be weeks where she will reference Susan all week. I miss her too Mati moo...we are just so thankful for the week we had with her in the end. She taught me more about life in that last week than most learn in a lifetime.

This year I also started back to school, and boy was that a challenge. I have passed points of stress and exhaustion with flying colors, but it was hard. This December will be the close of my first year down. Although I have a long road ahead of me, it was a year of credits that I didn't have. It was all worth it and I am farther than I have ever been.

This year Madelyne turned 2, and everyday we are blessed with a piece of heaven. She is so smart, funny, and a ball of sass. She is such a sweet natured baby, and melts my heart daily. Honestly we didn't know what we were doing when we decided to get pregnant a few years ago but wow...what a blessing we received.

This year we also found our we would be receiving another blessing in our household. Noah Grayson Kozel has been one of my biggest challenges. My pregnancy has been rather rough on my body this time. I have had moments of questioning our decision to get pregnant again with all the stress our lifestyle comes with, but then our amazing little girl will walk up to me and say "hey beautiful" and I can't wait to meet our little man to hear the things that will come out of his mouth.

This has also been Josh's last full year of school. When his mom passed away he decided to lower his load to deal with the pain, and that pushed him over to next semester. I am so thankful that after 7 years of being in school he will be done. I am so proud of him. I have been there for most of his journey, and my respect for this man is huge. He has had many all nighters...many afternoons away from his family, but he has managed to never let us feel like we are anything but number 1 in his list of priorities. Thank you honey for taking on the burden to better our future.

I am incredibly thankful for my family. My immediate and my in laws. I have such wonderful parents and although we don't always have the same opinion in things we never let it get in the way of our relationship. They are still my parents and you only get one set, you only get one family so I think you should make the best of anything. I think this comes with maturity not just age; you realize you no longer need your parents approval, you just need their love. This past year I have learned that your parents were chosen for you by a much greater power so trust him. Being a parent is not a walk in the park, and there no one is perfect.

Thank you God for blessing us with a great life. We must be doing something right to have received the gifts you have so graciously given.

Satisfaction

Well its been a while so I thought I owed everyone a post!



Little miss priss is completely potty trained and doing an excellent job. We had some issues with # 2, but we soon discovered she needed some privacy. She only does it at home. She will pee anytime anywhere but she will hold the other until she gets home. I think it is kinda funny!



Yesterday was her fall festival at the daycare and she looked so freakin cute! She is going to be an ice cream cone for Halloween from Pottery Barn. She is going to look adorable!

We are 27 weeks tomorrow...and that my friends is freaking scary! If he is like his sister we may meet him in 10 weeks, but I am hoping he is a typical laid back male and takes his time. He can stay in there until my dr will leave him in there. Don't get me wrong, I cant wait to meet this little guy, but the midnight feedings, leaky boobs, bleeding, stitches can take their time to get to me. Sorry if that was TMI, but its the nasty side of childbirth!

I can't wait for this semester to be over so I can slow down, relax, and enjoy life! I have been extremely overwhelmed...I have been playing super mom for too long..it anyone needs this costume for the weekend I will let you borrow, free of charge. The cleaning, school, work, and play with Mati has drained every ounce out of me. I am trying to refocus and get it back together.

HMMM most days I wonder what this little miracle growing in my expanding belly is going to look like. I would love to have a child that looks like me, but Josh was such a handsome little boy with his blonde comb over I am torn! He will be perfect. I am hoping he is a little bigger than 6.2 lbs...Mati was so small it was scary going home with a 5.12 lb baby! A little weight makes me feel a little better!

Here are some funny things Mati has been saying:

Mati was outside in her swing and Josh passed gas...Mati looked at him and said "Josh, you need to poo poo? he said "No" Mati: "ohhh you just tooted" Josh: "Yes" Mati: "Well don't poo poo in your panties, you poo poo in the potty, okay?"

We walked out of our bedroom the other night and baxter was waiting in the hall...Mati looked at Baxter and said "hey beautiful"...

Last week she was so sick, but she informed Josh that her baby was sick, not her..

She pokes her belly out like mommies...its hilarious!

She also let me know she was a princess and she was beautiful...

I have an awesome video of her singing her ABC's she does such a great job, and knows every letter!

The kid talks in her sleep non-stop! She whines...she yells at baxter for stealing her sticker...she asks for blues clues...last weekend she actually asked for donut holes...its pretty funny!

Life is going swell, if it could just slow down and let me breath I would really appreciate it..k..thanks..

Hope all is going great for everyone..I am craving turkey and dressing like a pregnant woman..ohh thats right I am pregnant!

My lover!

Man O Man...I love this dreamboat! I miss his longer hair! ahhhhh Date Night tomorrow~

Rise and Shine!

I wish I was always this happy at 7:30am!!!!! Tomorrow is Friday!!!!

I'm cooking baby!

Well I have decided to learn a new skill. I really want to learn how to COOK! I want Josh to be able to say, yeah my wife works ...goes to school..has babies...and man can she cook! This has always been a skill that I have lacked. My mom always cooked growing up and when she didn't my older sisters did. I was never forced in the kitchen to help make dinner. EVER!
So with all that said, I am really focusing my extra time on cooking. I have been cruising the Paula Dean website and other various recipe blogs. I also have been calling my mom for some of my favorite dinners she use to cook growing up. Josh and I have school 1 night a week on separate nights. I am determined to make dinner those 3 other nights a week and then maybe grill 1 night on the weekend. This is my goal...not a promise. I have patiently been waiting until the beginning of the month so I can splurge on some grocery shopping. My problem is I love to fry things. I went and picked up squash and okra yesterday...and can't wait to fry them. Poor Josh..he is going to have to commit himself to the gym if he wants to stay slim. hehehe..

Other than that school will be in full swing after tonight. My 2 online classes seem simple..its my math class that I am scared of....uhhhh....Lord help me! I always did really well in Math, the only issue is after 9th grade I completely cheated in the class. So I am not re-learning anything...I am learning it for the first time..lol.....If I could only write a letter to me at 16. It would say study hard.....don't bother with boys..keep your head in the books and out of the drama!

One of my first successful dinners was on Monday....stuffed chicken...bacon wrapped and ohh soo yummy....Josh adjusted his pants and told me to add this to my list of things I can cook. Can I get an amen? lol..

Doesn't it look delicious? 25 minutes prep...40 minutes in the oven...so easy! If you want the recipe let me know...I am not going to post it, this isn't a cooking blog sorry!


And I thought I would end with a picture of Madelyne. She loves getting into her mommy's make-up. While cleaning my room I noticed I hadn't heard her for a few minutes..anyone with children knows this can mean trouble....I walk into the bathroom to find her ducked down applying mommy's eyeshadow as blush.....if you look closely you can see her dark cheeks! Gotta love little girls, or at least mine anyways~

Happy Hump Day everyone!

Starting Fresh~!

Good Morning....

I have to say I am feeling amazing today! I had a great weekend with friends and family..and caught up on some much needed rest so now its time to blog.

Friday we went to dinner with a friend from High School that was in town and some close friends of ours. After dinner we headed back to our place to watch a comedy and share some laughs. I fell asleep putting Madelyne and Brittney fell asleep on my couch by 10 so....I don't feel too bad. Saturday mommy slept in Josh took Mati to the little gym! She had a blast and I got some much needed sleep. I am looking forward to going this weekend. That is for sure. Once they got back it was a quick change and then off to a birthday bash. After the birthday we headed off to a baby shower! Madelyne just loved entertaining after she warmed up. We dropped by my moms on the way home and let everyone get their dose of loving and headed home for a nap. Geez that makes me tired just thinking about it! After our nap....moo went to Walmart with her daddy and mommmy went to a "mommy" party with a girlfriend. We had a blast!

Sunday we decided to skip church ( I know, shame shame) and have family time instead. I made a big breakfast and we lounged in our pj's half the day. It was great. We didn't go anywhere. Madelyne played with her water table outside, we had naps (lovely), and then organized all the toys Mati got for her birthday. The kid is going to have to give somethings up before Christmas. Josh was in and out of doing school work all day, but it was so nice spending time together. We have been so busy with life; school, parties, being sick.....we just don't get the time to often to re-group and have some laughs. Josh says I have been way to serious lately and I really just need to let my hair down.

Funny things from this weekend with Madelyne:

She was sitting in the backseat with her hand closed, and I asked her what she had in her hand? She opens her hands with nothing inside and goes "uhhhhh fingers?"

She has been changing her babies diapers left and right and yesterday she would say " ohhh baby yuck....mommy she's got diareeerrraaaa.....lol..."

Last night she took all of our temperatures and gave us medicine.

Josh put together her pink tricycle and she was like "ohhh thank you Josh, I likey this"

Her new thing is "I'll be right back, okay?"

She talks to us like we are complete idiots sometimes. I swear its the funniest thing I have ever heard.


All about Noah:

He is growing great. I feel constant movement now and I am starting to get the bump...some days are good where you can't tell...some days....he is just out there! I will post a picture soon. In a week and a half we will be halfway down! Time Flies!

Here are a couple pictures from yesterday!





Playing with her water table. She would wet her slide, slide, and do it all over again.

Her first hot dog! After finishing her dinner she wanted to try ours. Josh grilled out and so we shared. She was so excited about it, you can see for yourself I am sure :)

Birthday Party!

Happy Birthday .....Madelyne~

You are the sweetest gift we have ever been given!

The Little Gym- Diva Style
Candy Buffet- Pink

Food Trays

Picture Time

Time to eat!

Happy Birthday to you~ I can't believe she blew out her candle.

Little Miss Nosey needing to know what's going on!

Bored while opening presents? Someone needed a nap!

Presents with daddy!

Everyone had to get in on the action. Poor Josh!

2 Years Old!

Dear Madelyne,

My Mati moo....ohh how you have grown. You bring so much joy to my life. You really are my heart walking around outside of my body. It may seem silly, but I can't picture my life before you came along and I never want to picture you not in my life. My life began with you. Yes I love your daddy and he has a piece of my heart, but a mothers love is completely different.

Everyday you call for me from your big girl bed and "mommy" has to be the best name I have ever been called. You love to sing. It doesn't matter where we are at or what we are doing. Your daddy and I have been forced to sing "Barney Too", "ABC'S", "Itsy Bitsy Spider", and "Twinkle Star" in restaurants and various public places. You have become quite a little mama thanks to some coaching from mommy(preparing her role as a big sister). You can count to 10 extremely well and you are getting your colors down slowly. You love to read books and Blues Clues rules our TV time. You say your prayers every night, and you are the most sweet natured baby I have ever known. When I am sick or tired you make yourself cozy next so me and kiss all over my face. Then you ask, "Feel better mommy?"I love it. You are such a ray of sunshine and you make my cloudiest day bright. Your smile is contagious, and I pray the man upstairs knows how thankful we are just to hold you everyday.

You are going to be an excellent big sister. You give your brother kisses already, and you let me know he could sit next to you on the front porch. You know you are going to be a big sister and this is an everyday conversation. I just hope your world gets better when we add to it, and you never feel jealous.

You go to the Little Gym now and you love it. You are there every Saturday morning and you let your wild side come out.

Your birthday was a magical day for me. You were surrounded with people that love you, and you got everything your little heart could have desired and more. It was hilarious to watch you try to orchestrate ciaos at your party by yelling for all the kido's to run. You are just the cutest little piece of heaven.

Thank you for being my daughter. Thank you for making everyday better, that's quite a big burden for a such a little girl and you do an excellent job at it! I wish I could just freeze you so you could be my innocent little girl forever.

I love you forever and always,
Mommy

I'm Here

Don't give up on me yet....large post coming, but I am in the middle of mid-terms!!!

To blog, without really blogging!!!

I stole this from a blog I stalk.....I thought I would take the time to blog without getting tooo chatty!

3 names I go by:
1. Baby
2. Mommy
3. Katie/ Kate


3 jobs I have had:
1. Inside Sales
2. Dr.'s Office
3. Cashier

3 places I have lived:
1. Mississippi
2. Sugarland
3. Pearland

3 drinks I love:
1. Pepsi
2. Sweet Tea
3. Water

3 shows I love:
1. Grey's Anatomy
2. The Good Wife
3. The Real Housewives

3 places I have visited:
1. Niagara Falls
2. New York, New York
3. Las Vegas

3 places I would like to visit:
1. Italy
2. Greece
3. Fiji

3 people that text me regularly:
1. Josh
2. Britney
3. Mom

3 of my favorite old shows:
1. Friends
2. Golden Girls
3. Full House

3 favorite dishes:
1. Broccoli and Cheese Casserole
2. Steak and Potato's
3. Spinach Dip

3 makeup products I can't live without:
1. Moisturizer
2. Lipgloss
3. Blush

3 things I am looking forward to:
1. Blonde Hair again!
2. my next pedi
3. finding out the sex of this bambino!!!

Energy, from where & Big Sister!

Well if you haven't heard it yet, Mati moo is going to be a big sister! I am due around the end of January and we couldn't be more excited! I think it is sooo sad how planned out we are...the first month with Mati we conceived...I told everyone the night I went into labor that I would...and the month I agree'd to for baby numbero 2 ...well you get the picture. I don't take all the credit though....2 people can do what their suppose to but if God doesn't put life there, you get nothing. I just want to say that I am soooo thankful for everything we have been given! We have our names picked out already and I am loving every minute introducing the big sister role to Mati.I think she will make a great older sister. For now January seems a long time away so I will be focusing on my fitness and eating healthy...Bring on the baby weight (in small doses please).

Moving on.. I have had energy from I don't know where. Since I found I have been incredibly happy, but this rush of energy really has me baffled me. I have washed my car..inside and out in this dreadful heat, cleaned things out...made dinner with Josh..cleaning house and doing laundry during the week. That is a little out of my norm. So whatever it is I hope it sticks around. Ohh I will say one thing I was looking forward to being prego again would be some bigger boobs...so far I am still walking around with the little things that Mati left me with, so I am hoping soon I get that side effect from pregnancy.

All About Mati:

This little girl keeps us laughing everyday! She has soo much personality.

One of our Convo's:

Me: I am in a panic looking for my keys, we were running late and I called Josh he had no clue and out of no where Mati says..

Mati: Mommy, where's keys?

Me: I don't know..

Mati: Josh has keys

Me: Ohh daddy has my keys...

Mati: Yeah..

Another one~

I was laying Mati down for bed and josh walked in from letting baxter in.. Mati says..

Mati: Mommy, where's Josh?

Me: He went nite nite like you are..lets go to sleep..

(Josh gives baxter a treat and you hear the glass cling when he puts the lid back on the jar)

Mati: (rolls over and looks at me like I lied) Mommy, Josh gave baxter a cookie.

Me: I know ..now they have to go nite nite..

Mati: rolls back over staring at me like I am a liar....awesome!

Tuesday we tried to get her to run through the sprinkler...she hated it! I sure hope that changes. She informed me that it was water and it made things wet. She hates any dirt on her feet, she comments "ewww" and "gross" when there is anything on them. Kissing her boo boo's still make everything better, which I love. She is into everything..she helps me clean..she recognizes the alphabet and says random letters..we are working on colors and counting..she is doing great and so are we!

Everybody have a great day!

I don't know..

This weekend...Josh and I had tons to do..I had errands all day on Saturday and cleaning all day yesterday. I am so glad we just relaxed on Friday night.

Last week I decided to try this Master Cleanse thing I had heard about...10 days ....no eating..special lemonade. Well I made it 2 1/2 days and I had to eat. I did lose 4 lbs in 2 days though. I am a believer I just need food to function. :)

Saturday we were up and running..Mall...lingerie gift for a friend...drop off our rings to get them looking brand new....a little shopping for mommy and moo....Toys R Us...a net for Mati's toys .... Walmart ...grocery shopping...Lunch with my parents..my mom made the most amazing roast beef sandwiches..yummm....then we went home to change and head over to Steven and Britney's..Mati had a blast. She played with Britney's niece and she kept wanting to go inside then outside. She definitely keeps us busy. While cruising the mall on Saturday we found a little stand that did embroidery, they had small backpacks with bows that were adorable so we placed our order and headed over to Toy's R Us. When we came back to pick up the bag I let Josh run in and I proceeded to circle the mall. After a few times I asked Mati "Where's your daddy?"..I wasn't expected a response but she quickly answered "I don't know"....lol..for the next 5 minutes she would ask me every few seconds.."Where's Josh?"

Sunday was a great day...I was in the shower and I hear Mati yelling "mommy" so I answered her "what?" and she responded, "I didn't know where you were"... ok so I thought that was really cute.. she is such a smart girl. After church we had lunch with my parents then we headed to pick up our rings...They look awesome! We ventured over to Babies R Us to pick up a shower gift for Josh's cousin. I ordered her some of the best things that I got at my shower. Its nice to get somethings that you generally don't splurge on right after you have a baby. Next we headed home to tackle my 3 page To do list... yeah we work'd our rears off and still didn't get everything done. I am a very detailed person and I probably set goals that are a little to high for myself, but this keeps me going so my "to do's" will bleed into the week. This is the life I live for.

Tomorrow is my dad's birthday!!! We are going to Taste of Texas...I am kinda excited! I am a meat and potato's kinda girl!

I hope everyone had a fabulous weekend..I hope to update our main picture and add some shots after tomorrow night! Adios!

Fresh Start~

I am starting a new lease on life!!!

Last week I finished up finals, and I feel like a brand new person. After I saw the all A's online, school felt so worth all of the lack of sleep...binge eating ....and lots of no dose! I am taking 2 classes this summer and I am already ready. Bring it on! Josh also did well, completing 2 of his classes in his MBA program with A's. Needless to say we decided to celebrate Monday night, so we went to dinner and just enjoyed each others company.

The past few weeks have been complete chaos. We have had some pretty low low's but we are inching our way up slowly. Life is making its way back to the norm and for that I am so grateful.

Summer is here...Weekends can be spent at our dirty beaches. Sandals, swimsuits, and my little girl playing in the sprinkler are about to happen!!! lol.. Mati by the way is a complete handful. Here are some of the things she has been up too:

One of our morning convo's...

Mati are you ready to go to school?
Mati: No
Mommy: Don't you want to see Harlie (her bff)?
Mati: No
Mommy: Ok well what about Caden of Caleb?
Mati: Be Quiet! (pointing her finger at me)


She also is making up her own music...I think she may have a future writing lyrics. While we were getting dinner ready she is putting her magnets on the fridge singing .."my poo poo".. I told Josh well she has definitely poo'd her diaper...

She is obsessed with her blocks. Her and daddy make their creations daily. For some reason she insist on sitting in whatever she just made...its pretty funny....

Anytime she see's a truck it is "maw maw" and "paw paw's) ....mommy has a car....lol.. She really likes talking about this. The whole drive to daycare we are usually discussing cars.

All the kids in her class are learning each others names. The other day when we left daycare we passed one of the other little kids moms...Mati look right at her and said her daughters name..I was pretty impressed.

Mati is also a little helper. She loved to clean with a paper towel or wash cloth, and when I start to vacuum she gets her play one and follows behind. I love this phase!


I am also back in the swing of things with the gym...I started the 10 day total cleanse and I am sooo excited! Wish me luck...have a great day!

Today...

Today I sit.....

I sit in a desk that is larger than most and yet I still manage to cover it with paperwork...

My head is split with an unbearable head ache from the backs of these green eyes all the way to the light brown hair that longs to be dyed...

My body shakes from chills and my lower back needs a major rub down...

My large tonsils fill the back of my throat and it hurts to speak...

My screen is filled with orders awaiting to be put in...

But still I sit...

With no empathy from anyone.....I sit...

Pure exhaustion glazes my olive color eyes and the longing to crawl into my bed calls me...

My better half feels the way most do.... "welcome to finals"... or whatever hell this is..

I now have come to know regret...unfortunately my mother in law passed away..

Before her passing there was much that I needed to say..

Did she know I genuinely loved her....that I would always take care of her son..

Or did she see my eager eyes filled with love too heal her pain....

I miss her already...not that I called her often..

I miss our rambling chats that we used to fill the awkward silence..

I will miss the fake phone calls I placed with inquiring medical questions about Mati...I already know the answer I just wanted her to fill included...

Most of all I will miss your laugh and how you always put me at ease with my vanity...

Something we both shared..

I will miss you always...and I will speak your name often...your memory lives in our minds and Mati will know how much you loved her..

My heart is aching at the pain your son must feel, but I will remain strong...and cry on my own...

We love you and we miss you immensely Happy Mothers Day Susan...you gave me the best thing that ever happened to me, and for that I owe you everything....

Week/weekend happenings...

Well what a busy week we have had and after this weekend we are going to be knocked up into overdrive until finals...I am scared and excited all at the same time!

Mati has been doing great! Her vocabulary has expanded to words I haven't expected to hear yet. It really amazes me how much that little mouth can talk. Its almost been a week with no binky and she still kind of ask for it from time to time. I have noticed that when I say the binky is all gone, I am asked almost in the same sentence for her "cuppy".... I think she is replacing the binky with her cuppy, and that's okay. Wednesday when I picked up Mati from the daycare I noticed an ambulance outside the building where Mati is kept. In a hurried walk I finally reached her classroom. I noticed the teacher was gone, but I didn't think anything of it. I was holding my baby, and that's all that mattered at that moment. After asking some questions my heart broke when I found out that one of the little girls in Mati's class was actually seizing in the ambulance and they couldn't get her to stop. During diaper change the little girl began seizing on the ground, the teachers cut her clothes off and laid her on her side to try and get them to stop. Nothing worked, she started seizing at 4:05 and continued until late that night. Typically when you have a seizure your brain doesn't get in oxygen and if the persist for a long period of time, brain damage is common. Thankfully she was released from ICU the next day and she had zero brain damage! Thank you Jesus! Poor Mati, the kids were all in the room and I asked Mati if she was okay. She told me yes and then asked me if I was okay. She can always make me smile. Other than that we have a little tease on our hands....she will act as if you are about to get a kiss and run away laughing...lol. She also got her first pair of puma tennis shoes. I am so anti-tennis shoe, but Josh insisted and I am glad she got them. She loves them and is constantly showing me her new shoes...lol.. She also loves everything..she loves her books, Baxter, cookies, mommy, Josh. It's hilarious!

This week is going to be a major clean out...wipe down weekend. I want alot done, so we will see what I get accomplished! This hands can do wonders...lol..

Unfortunately Josh's mom was taken to the Emergency room yesterday afternoon. She is having a hard time controlling her muscles from her waist down. We are hoping this might be a side effect from her medication, but the doctors are worried that a compressed tumor is on these nerves...effected her equilibrium. So please keep her in your prayers.

Prayer

I would like to ask each and every person that stumbles across my blog to say a prayer for my mother-in-law. Josh's mom was diagnosed recently with stage 4 cancer. For those of you that don't know me..I am a person with a great deal of faith. I have seen miracles happen, and I am a firm believer in the power of prayer. When Mati is sick I always take her to the alter at church to be prayed for because I believe in a greater physician. Susan, I know you read this blog from time to time and I am sorry for putting it all out there. I personally feel that the more prayers we have going up, the greater the outcome. I hope you forgive me.

If you know us and you see my husband....be extra nice...his heart is heavy.

Thank you in advance..

I love Paw-Paw~

This morning on our way to daycare:

Mati: Mommy , binky?

Me: Mati your binky is all gone. Binkies are for babies and you are a big girl!

Mati: I love binky...

Me: I know, but you don't need one anymore they are for babies.

Mati: I love baby.

Me: You love your baby?

Mati: Yeah

Mati: I love puppy.

Me: Oh, is baxter your puppy?

Mati: Yeah

Mati: I love maw-maw and paw-paw.

Me: You love maw-maw and paw-paw?

Mati: Yeah...I love paw-paw. I love paw-paw. I love paw-paw. (It was like correction, I love paw-paw)

There you go Dad, just for you!

I always knew God had a sense of humor

So this morning was a hum dinger..BUT....God knew just how to make me laugh and boy I needed it~ so Thank You Jesus!
Let me set my story up first:

Mati moo has been sick...after a night of hitting her head and practically ripping her ear off I took her to the Dr. yesterday. She has an ear infection in both ears....poor baby and a bunch of sinus junk! so...I haven't been getting enough sleep (ohh the joys of mommyhood) so this morning back to work and daycare...she looked adorable...bad mood but adorable....10 minutes before we walk out the door....she vomited everywhere.....it was on her shoes and she kept saying eeewwww! I was trying not to laugh and cry at the same time...so after pulling it together and dropping her off I needed an escape......MCDONALDS~~~

I pull up excited about my coke and sausage biscuit...she asks me what I want and no lie....I shouted out "Thank you for calling Winn Meat Co., This is Ka............" It was like I left my body and returned to what the heck are you saying....when I got to the window she looked at me like I was from another planet I explained I was on my phone and I was sorry that I yelled but they couldn't hear me.....the look on her face said she didn't believe me.....

When I left I was laughing so hard I almost pee'd my pants! Thank you, Thank you...thats all I have to say!!!


I already wrote a post about Easter I just need to add my pics~

Hope you enjoyed and had a laugh too!

Things that make me laugh

10. Sitting at a four way traffic light and watching a car coming from a turning lane ...enter another turning lane instead of staying in the correct one... you follow?

9. My driver that sings really loud in Spanish in our warehouse...I wonder if he knows we can hear him....

8. Josh actually being wrong... :)

7. Mati's new "gobbling" language

6. The stupid girl at the gym....seriously do you need to walk to the predominately men's side for a drink of water after every 10 lb set....

5. Watching a guy get turned down trying to talk to the stupid girl.....rejected.... ( I am so glad I NEVER have to date again)

4. My mom when she gets really tired...

3.People at the rodeo that can't hold their liquor.... ( I mean do you really need to yell that you didn't mean to bump into me....I might be sober but I am not deaf)

2. The story about the troll...If I haven't told you ...just ask!

1. Mati yelling for "Josh" in public.... hopefully people notice she looks just like him and he is not some sweet boy just helping a girl out....lol...

Have a good one!

Hello World!

What a busy month this has been!!!! whew! Just thinking about it makes me tired!

Josh and a few extra hands built an awesome deck in the backyard. I got to plant dozens of pretty flowers and pick out some lawn furniture! That consumed our weekends to the max and it wasn't fun BUT now that it is over I get to enjoy a nice deck...now if I could only get Mr. Kozel to buy me a hammock I would be in heaven.....

Midterms came and went and I am still maintaining my A averages!! yeah!!! BUT I am tired and I feel like everyday I am pushing myself to get through it verses enjoying it. :( but I think that comes with time, and everyone has to pay their dues right?

2 Weeks ago I got to celebrate 3 years of being married to a wonderful man, and 5 years of togetherness. I have always hated how you have to start over when you get married. I dated a lot when I was younger and was very fickle so to have actually found a guy I want to see everyday was ground breaking for me...Here is a quick rundown.... We have known each other since 8th grade BUT we never really liked each other and to be completely honest I hated the kid.... He was this chubster sitting behind me singing " I'm Blue da ba dee da be di" not to mention his constantly flattery on HIMSELF!!! hehehehe Throughout highschool Josh hung with the partying crowd...and was very cocky and arrogant...(sound familiar?) I actually didn't like people even talking about him in my presence...he thinks I had some secret crush but honestly I was intimidated...moving on.....highschool came and went and so did lots of boys...until Josh comes walking in Radioshack....(yes I worked here and I can be quite handy with cables and such :) ) He stayed 3 hours......really 3 hours....trying to activate a stolen cell phone for his buddy! hmm tsk tsk...he gave me his number and I acted like I threw it away...he showed up the next day...I heard through the grape vine he made the comment "I kept him on his toes"...I called and the rest is history......He is the best man for me and there aren't many like him out there if any! Within 7 months we were engaged and I have been head over heels since! When you know ....you know...I would have taken a cracker jacks ring...bc in the end it doesn't matter! I love you H.B. you rock my world :).. I will post pics later....

Mati is doing excellent...I am starting to discipline her a little more...she has been throwing fits...but other than that all is well with little miss priss. I don't know what we did for entertainment before we had a kido...she makes me laugh constantly... Lately when she accidentally kicks me ....punches me in the face and I say "ouch" her lips instantly pucker and she wants to give me a kiss... she is also in the phase where kissing makes anything better. She is still obsessed with "the wheels on the bus" and I noticed she is starting to sing to herself...Nothing that I can understand but lots of humming..I think it is adorable. A couple weeks ago I picked her up from the Daycare and when we left I noticed a scratch on her elbow where she obviously had fell down. I asked her if it hurt? or did she cry? She answered yes to both and held the wrong elbow saying "hurt" milking it.... so I told her she was holding the wrong elbow and she quickly switched over caressing the correct one! Last week Josh and I took her to the park to play...she loves the slides I was really surprised she would go down the tunnel one! Daddy is still Josh for now...but I think I am starting to hear a little daddy now and then...she has also adapted this new language...she literally sounds like a turkey gobbling and if you say something to her like this she answers you like you are having a conversation...super weird and we have no idea where she picked it up...

I am pushing myself back into my routine of working out and tanning, Josh is a great support system for that..lol... :) One thing I have to learn this year is to have an actual real perception of time....Rome wasn't built in a day!

I hope everyone has had a great week...I am so sore it hurts to cross my legs! ohh well back in the daily grind...

Queen of Procrastination

Yep- Thats me....Lately I can't get my butt in gear unless my time is almost gone...I read 7 chapters of History the past 3 days and I am all history'd out! My online exam is tomorrow night and I need to prewrite 7 essays for the essay portion Thursday night. My math midterm is tonight and I am a ball of nerves..Fingers crossed I do well...

I will prob. do a big update on Friday...don't give up on me yet!

To my little love

Dear Mati Moo,

I just wanted to tell you that I love you more than life itself. On Sunday you turned 18 months old, and I couldn't believe you are halfway to 2. WOW! The past 18 months have been the best months of my entire life. You are such a sweet baby, and you love to show affection. You like to color and draw on things, you are in love with Elmo, and you are the pickiest eater ever ( this is probably my fault). Your daddy and I can't believe how much you love your Elmo right now. The only thing you have been attached to since birth was your binky, which I hate to break it you...that will soon be making its departure. :) You carry your new friend around everywhere and lately he needs to ride to school with you and he also needs to sleep with you as well. You really like the Wiggles and I often find myself singing their tunes at work. We have a routine that you follow everyday. I think they are important and I know you enjoy it so...that's what we do. After school everyday we swing by maw maw and paw paw's and say hello...they expect to see you everyday and if mommy has school they make sure to come by just to say hi. They adore you. You play and they feed you things that ruin your dinner.. :) and then its off to the house to wait for daddy or as you call him Josh. We get dinner going and get on the couch and watch our daily dose of the Wiggles....after dinner its bathtime...playtime...book time...whatever you want...you run the house :) You love your slide from your grandma, its your new thing. Weekends are spent learning new things or helping mommy clean. We stay pretty busy, and when you can hang outside with your daddy for a bit you are in heaven. He does everything for you. Last night when I got home from school you were asleep and your daddy was looking at old pictures from when you were tiny tiny. He loves being your daddy. Just don't be silly and decide you want to get married at 12....lol...it will break his heart. Although you look a lot like your daddy you take after your mommy quite a bit in the personality department. Your love for shoes is adorable and if I would let you, you would try on all your shoes daily. You love to dance, but what girl doesn't? You also love to make people laugh. You wore your sunglasses in church for 5 minutes on Sunday just to get people to look at you. You are such a ham.Last but not least I want you to know something pretty important. Mommy and daddy are both in school right now and we both work and sometimes life seems really busy. I just want you to know that you are never on the back burner...you always come first to both of us. I would rather spend my nights with you and stay up until dawn studying just to do it all over again. We work to provide you with everything. You love daycare and you friends and I think it has helped you have amazing social skills. You are a little social butterfly. You love people.Everything we do is for you, for a good future, for a good life....we love you unconditionally. I don't think I knew what that meant until I knew you. <3

Love,
Mommy

Picture catch up!

WIC

After much thought..I have decided that the WIC office across the street is going to see me today!!!! I am so tired of people milking the system...This is for people that are single moms...people struggling to get on their feet ...not you Mr. new Lexus...waiting on you wife to cash in on my tax money !!!!!! If you had a baby and can't afford it.(obviously you can)...find a JOB!!!!!!!!!!!!

Done venting!

Why don't people understand this is more of a place for temporary help!

It's been way too long....

Well I am sure you have been wondering...Where have we been, right? Well we have been pretty busy..we are exhausted and just waiting for spring break...

School has been going excellent so far.. I have been maintaining A's and I am really proud of myself....can't you tell? I feel like my going back to school has also put added stress on Josh. He is doing his first year all over again.... he is proof reading....teaching me things I should remember from high school and just being unbelievably supportive. Thank you honey!

Home life is also kind of hectic right now...we are about to start building a patio out back....well not "we"..but I will just get to decorate it, pick out the furniture and decide on the plants... and that excites me!

Our weekends are spent juggling Mati moo, homework, housework, and a little "us"time...ohh the joys. I am starting to adjust and I am getting in the swing of things. The reason I haven't posted lately is because I have been kinda MIA on my myself. I fell of the band wagon about 2 1/2 weeks ago and I am still trying to make myself get back up. With added stress of school...I quit going to the gym...quit tanning...quit this blog...I really stopped doing alot of the things that I enjoyed..... My body ached and I felt as if something were wrong with me. The other night I had a "come to Jesus meeting" with myself. I am going to push myself back into those things until I get back into my routine. I have also been eating like crap...not sleeping very well so I am hoping that with a little push I can get over this hump...."fake it until you make it", right?

Valentines Day was a lot of fun....like it always is in the Kozel House...or shall I say LOVE DAY! It was more like love weekend... we both took off on Friday and sent Mati moo to daycare..We headed to Cracker Barrel for breakfast and then off to watch Valentine's Day...I don't recommend spending your money to watch it...wait until it comes out on video...better yet...then wait until next Vday...I can't imagine it working for any other weekend. We picked Mati moo up and headed to the Galleria...I am starting to stock up in Spring/ Summer clothes....then we went to dinner with my parents...after dinner we went and bought Josh a new suit. He needed one for a Gala that we are attending tomorrow night. All of his old suits are way to big...I must say he looks smoking in his new duds... Saturday we cleaned house...did laundry and picked up our groceries... I had a 4 page paper due this weekend so after spending 6 hours on that...we crashed.. On actual valentines day we did our tradition pink heart pancakes...enjoyed each others company...we both had a little school work...so...we ordered our heart shaped pizza for dinner....it is soo cute and watched "The Time Travelers Wife".....ohh it was awesome...they left a lot out from the book, but I still cried like a little girl!

My work week started way early...3 am on Monday.... I was off to Dallas for a day of learning...I had a great time...BTW I missed seeing you Dee...maybe when you are here for the Rodeo. After a long day ..my 2 loves picked me up at the airport and I was out like a light by 830...So needless to say this week has sucked!!! :) School nights are over for the week and after my quiz tonight..I am taking at least a 12 hour breather from school!

Now on to what you really want to hear:

Mati has been learning sooo much....The teachers are amazed at her large vocabulary...They said she does excellent on her flashcards...She knows some of the noises animals make.. Her new thing is Elmo. I have been trying to teach her how to count...we move things from container to container....she will say 2....and 6 mainly 6 for everything... We practice our alphabet...she does really well and can pronounce all of her letters correctly. The told me last week that Mati is a dancer....of course I already knew this, she loves to dance just like her mama....Mati has also been walking around the house moving her hands saying round and round....I had no idea what she was talking about, but my mom figured it out last night....the wheels on the bus go round and round.....lol...sho does the whole thing...Its so cute to watch her do the "babies on the bus go wahhhh" she is hilarious. She is such a loving baby....when I had been gone all day on Monday I didn't get to see her so on Tuesday morning I felt 2 little arms around my neck when I woke up and her head was above mine on my pillow....she was snuggling her mommy.... man oh man I love this little girl with my whole heart....

ok ok I must get to work, BUT I am promising a big picture post by tomorrow..check back and hod me to it....

I'll leave you with this....a professor one said "Thursday is the greatest day of the week because the anticipation of Friday is better than the actual day"....

Adios!

To be blonde or not to be?

I am missing my blonde tresses.....anyone have a opinion..? Should I go back..I am interested on the weigh in...I think my dark hair is a little more harsh on my face...hmmmm

What do YOU think?

Sentences

Yes that's right ...Mati moo is on to sentences...A couple weeks ago the Daycare called and let me know they wanted to move Mati up over some kids that were older than her because she was more advanced. I was thrilled at the news...I mean I know she is smart, but to hear other people say it makes my day. So the past 2 weeks Mati has really been blooming.. This past weekend /yesterday I can distinctively remember 3 or 4...."I show my teeth"....."I want my tubby (sippy cup)" "I saw cat"....."momma my bink".... Other than that the kid never shuts up...and she talks soooo loud. This morning she told me to move... because I was in her way...... :) She is getting a lot better with entertaining herself. I can actually clean with her as long as I give her something to do...Its awesome! She has learned how to get up and down on her slide and has a blast. She is also driving BOTH her little cars finally... She instantly liked the 4 wheeler but the hummer took some coaxing. After this weekend she has decided she likes it! She is also getting her top molars in....fun for mommy and daddy! This past Sunday she got taken out at church for a spanking for the very first time! She slapped me in the face 2 times and I told her to stop or she was going to get a spanking......she then pulled my hair ...so out the door we went....She didn't even cry!

Josh and I have been really busy with school...I am going to the gym 4 to 5 days a week on my lunch....school 2 nights and I am taking 2 onlines...so I am pretty swamped..Josh is already pretty overwhelmed on week 2 so we are trying to find the right schedule for us and homework...reading...unfortunately it looks like the solution is late nights!!!! ohh well... We will hopefully be adding a new addition to the Kozel clan in May...I am getting excited...I thought I wouldn't be ready, but I am starting to miss having that little baby to hold....other than that we are trying to keep our heads above water! I hope everyone is enjoying their new year and keeping to those new year resolutions!

Pee Pee in the Potty!!!

Yay!! my little girl is getting big quick...We bought the potty last weekend and after a few failed attempts she finally figured out what to do... Earlier this week I would ask while she was sitting on the potty if she wanted to pee pee like a big girl like mommy...she would say "no"..so while I was at school on Tuesday night she pee peed for the first time...It was bittersweet for me...It was my first milestone to ever miss. I have been a working mom and have been blessed to not miss a thing..until this week. I think Josh needed it though. So she peed 3 times last night. When you ask her if she needs to pee pee she takes off for the bathroom trying to get her pants down..Its hilarious to watch! So we are going into full mode training next month with real undies and some pull up's!!

Now the exciting news is over I will update you on our week:

Monday I got a call from the Daycare telling me that Mati was acting "weird" and very distant. Apparently she was staring in space all day and cried her entire nap. They said she wasn't talking or playing and that set off warning bells in my head. Anytime Mati has ever been sick she has always been so happy..no matter what it was. She is such a little social butterfly I couldn't imagine her not interacting with other kids. I wrapped up my day and took off..When I got there the child that stumbled to me wasn't my Mati. She was on fire and her was crying. She kept rolling her eyes back in her head and was kinda letting her head fall like she was falling asleep or something. So I called Josh crying...and told him to get home now. I was about to take her to the emergency room. He calmed me down and I ran home and gave her some Tylenol..She started slowly getting better. After the Dr. visit we learned she has all the symptoms of RSV but tested negative and had 2 ear infections...with lots of puss. He said she was so lethargic because she was in so much pain! I felt horrible for her and she has been babied all week! She has been acting like herself since yesterday and she has been sleeping with mommy and daddy since Sunday night! I am so glad she is doing better!

I started school this week 2 night classes and 2 online! My math class is 10 girls...and my government class seems like it will be fun. I am really excited that I am getting this opportunity to go back to school soo...I am not going to waste it!

I have been hitting the gym everyday this week and today I just had a mental block...I didn't want to go...I wanted off the elliptical within 2minutes and I just wanted to go home and relax on my couch for 40 minutes...but now that it is over ...I am glad I went...

Congrats Katrina on starting P90X...you will love the results...lol.. I think its awesome you completed week one...the soreness goes away and the workouts seem alot easier on week 2..

I can't wait to snuggle up to my hubby tonight and watch our shows. I have really missed him this week!

Blogged- yes again!

Yeah I am blogging once again this week...

I am working on orders and had some downtime so I thought I would run off at the mouth for a bit...lol...Went to the gym on my lunch break again...had an awesome work out...the only bad thing is I could smell the ladies breath that was riding a bike in front of me.....how hard is it to breathe through your nose....I know your are sweating...so am I....but should you really let that foul smell effect us all... :) Same guy in pink tee was flexing and fixing his hair in the mirror...once her finally got to a machine he sat there and stared at it forever...It was like he was telling it that it wasn't going to get one over on him....crazy...

Mati and I hung out last night...I can't believe Josh was getting home so late before the holidays...7 is just too late ..especially with us both starting school next week....yikes..am I nervous about that! geez! So Josh will be going in earlier now to have a little more family time. I can't wait! Other than that it was a normal night in the Kozel house...I am not looking forward to this cold weather...I hate cold weather.... :(

My mother in law has lent me her treadmill..I don't want to say given...because I asked to borrow it, but she has no use for it..she has awesome replacement! So I am pretty stoked about doing extra cardio at my house...the last time I went for a run I bumped into a neighbor and he went on and on about how much weight I lost....I mean I only lost 12 lbs....so are you referring to when I was pregnant jerk off? I mean he just kept saying "man....you lost a lot....I wouldn't have recognized you....man....".....ok vinnie.....was I a freaking heifer before or what?.....so yes I am excited about running in my own home..although I do love the wind on my face... I will wait until it is a warmer wind..

I am soo ready to use my Gymboree bucks next week....hopefully I get some good deals.. I need to stock up on some Spring clothes...

Mati has been getting up every night this week and I would love one night of straight sleep...please God...amen...lol..

So I am on my way to finish my work day...I hope all of you have an amazing warm weekend inside...I hope to not go anywhere...

The Gym...

ok so I thought I would add a little humor...

Have you ever noticed what all the guys in the gym dooo??? I usually do a good 30 minutes on the elliptical everyday and while I am sweating my butt off I have a view to the whole gym and I kid you not all men do is look in the mirrors.... at THEMSELVES!!!!!!!

ok so I have 2 theories...

A) They are like all egotistical men and just love to gawk at themselves, I mean really where did they get the confidence? 1 guy in his pink tee just walks around doing ballistic stretching....some men literally stare and flex their arms...come on guys...us ladies are sweating our booties off!!!

B) They are watching us in the mirrors.... ( I don't hold much to this theory...the sights are scary at my gym or as Josh calls it...the scenery)

There is one guy that has to be in his 80's and he stands in front of the mirrors and does some Frank Sinatra dancing...I get a kick out of him the most... I just want to grab his old wrinkly hand and kick my heels up OR the other guy at Josh's gym that boxes himself.....he seriously comes in boxing attire....and standing in front of the mirror and boxes himself the entire time...

I am starting to realize why the mirrors are always by the weight training side....but I guess I am thankful because I don't want to watch my booty bounce up and down....

I also think some men misunderstand their weight for muscle....really just because your a big guy doesn't mean you are Arnold....weight does not equal strength... :)

ok ok I am done with my ramblings...as you can see I can't wait for my next day of people watching...

yay!

Today was pretty good day.. I am ready for the work day to be over.. :) I have been sticking to working out and I am pretty proud of myself. I kinda have an outlook I haven't had before so we will see how far it takes me. I actually took pictures I can show this time!!!

Have I mentioned how much my beautiful baby girl lights up my day.... Oh how I love to watch those 2 little feet run to me when I go and pick her up from daycare...hands out and open just for her mommy. I love how much she can communicate with us now. She lets you know when she doesn't want something and points to what she does.....

Yesterday when we got home I told her mommy had to pee pee...and I asked her "Can mommy go pee pee?" She took off running to our bathroom and was trying to open the door so I opened it and she pointed to the potty and said "pee pee"... lol

She now says "yay" for herself when she claps her hands...

She wakes up talking I kid you not. From the moment her little eyes open its something...not that I am complaining.... :)

I am going to work really hard on exposing her to the potty and training this month then I plan on actually starting next month. The daycare actually laughed at me when I inquired about it! Ohh well they will be surprised! I don't think I am setting unreachable goals for my child, but if she is interested in it I will expose her and educate her. I will not hold her back.:P ok enough of that!!!!

I can't wait to get this year rockin and rollin!!!!

"Out with the Old and In with the New"

A new year....a year to make mistakes...a year to learn new things...and a year to watch our little family grow... We have so many plans this year and goals for ourselves....

My list: So Far!

Keep working out and finally buy that sexy suimsuit I have always wanted! (No matter what the price Josh)
Eat less sweets
Eat less bread (God, I need your help with this one)
Take some "me" time every now and then
Book my massage my brother in law bought me..
Pay down some debt (paying it all off would be unrealistic)
Go back blonde come Spring...
Make all "A's"this year and bump my load up to 18 hrs by Fall
Stay sane :)
More shopping trips and lunches with my mom
Start riding bikes with the hubbs again...
Make a sibling for Mati moo.... ( wow that sounds like a cake or something)...lol... Late Sring/ Early Summer
Quit procrastinating..
Be a better friend
Send out special cards to special people...
Help 5 strangers this year through acts of kindness... :)
Get Josh to paint my friggin stripes he promised...
Paint my kitchen
Reconnect with some old friends and mend some old fences

my number one
Keep loving on my handsome hubby and our beautiful daughter...


A more detailed post will be coming for all 5 of you that actually read this!!! lol..